Dumbfounded
I'm dumbfounded.
I not sure how to put this, but I just dun get some people at all. They call you friends or brothers but many times they are more of an added pressure than anything else. Not sources of support or help but people with strange expectations. The worst deal is that they make a whole lot of assumptions about you and hold that as as true... The story goes that I was late today for some stupid talk that I didn't want to attend in the first place. Well just 5 mins anyway.
Ok I admit there are alot of things that I'm always late for so penalise me for that. It' something I need to learn: punctuality. But when people tell you off each time you're late like you're some unreliable kid it get really annoying. Then they start questioning your character: They ask if I brush them aside cause I didn't seat with them during the talk. They remind you of the time when I didn't seat with them during meals from some other occasions and conclude among themselves that I'm Mr High and Mighty. I try to explain to them the circumstances and still they maintain their conclusion. It may be placed in a joking manner but it really isn't funny at all.
I don't think I like it very much when people take pot shots at your character. It just isn't right. And it get really painful when these are your friends. You think they know you but they don't. I can shrug senseless comments if they just come once in a while. But keep getting at it and ganging up together over and over again...There's only so much a person can shrug off before it gets to him...
I'm still wondering if such individuals can be considered friends. Or are they mere aquaintances whom you see often enough.... I know there are things that I need to change but I always thought friends were more accomodating. I guess not all are like that.....
I'm not staying in my room the whole day slacking away. I'm doing things that matter to me and are important. I go late because things are sometimes not as important or I'm caught up with other things. But I do try. Give me some credit. Don't judge my character and impose your presupposed view of me when you have no idea who I really am...Or what I'm going through. I know there are things I'm not perfect in...But show me someone perfect then. I feel so maligned!!
*Sigh*
There I got it off my chest. But I don't feel any better. Maybe I should confront them with this. Hmm...Maybe.... If there's a chance.
PS: I apologize for the angry words. There's a high probability that it does not refer to you. This is just my avenue for angst.
I not sure how to put this, but I just dun get some people at all. They call you friends or brothers but many times they are more of an added pressure than anything else. Not sources of support or help but people with strange expectations. The worst deal is that they make a whole lot of assumptions about you and hold that as as true... The story goes that I was late today for some stupid talk that I didn't want to attend in the first place. Well just 5 mins anyway.
Ok I admit there are alot of things that I'm always late for so penalise me for that. It' something I need to learn: punctuality. But when people tell you off each time you're late like you're some unreliable kid it get really annoying. Then they start questioning your character: They ask if I brush them aside cause I didn't seat with them during the talk. They remind you of the time when I didn't seat with them during meals from some other occasions and conclude among themselves that I'm Mr High and Mighty. I try to explain to them the circumstances and still they maintain their conclusion. It may be placed in a joking manner but it really isn't funny at all.
I don't think I like it very much when people take pot shots at your character. It just isn't right. And it get really painful when these are your friends. You think they know you but they don't. I can shrug senseless comments if they just come once in a while. But keep getting at it and ganging up together over and over again...There's only so much a person can shrug off before it gets to him...
I'm still wondering if such individuals can be considered friends. Or are they mere aquaintances whom you see often enough.... I know there are things that I need to change but I always thought friends were more accomodating. I guess not all are like that.....
I'm not staying in my room the whole day slacking away. I'm doing things that matter to me and are important. I go late because things are sometimes not as important or I'm caught up with other things. But I do try. Give me some credit. Don't judge my character and impose your presupposed view of me when you have no idea who I really am...Or what I'm going through. I know there are things I'm not perfect in...But show me someone perfect then. I feel so maligned!!
*Sigh*
There I got it off my chest. But I don't feel any better. Maybe I should confront them with this. Hmm...Maybe.... If there's a chance.
PS: I apologize for the angry words. There's a high probability that it does not refer to you. This is just my avenue for angst.
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