Joel's leaving...
I was thinking about the notion of leaving again today...
Joel's the next person to leave for studies overseas. It got me thinking of the past so things that some of the brothers in church had together. The days when WeiJie, Gabriel, Joel, my brother and myself served together in church as band of Advisors in YM. That seems like a lifetime ago. Almost like it never happened sometimes. Thinks are sometimes so drastically different that I don't know what to make of it.
With the passage of time, circumstances differ and people change. Deep relationships become shallow and time honoured bonds wane. Time has such an effect on people doesn't it. It can be brutally cruel in this way. A even more cruel to accept.
I wonder of some of us still feel the same way about our place in church? That it's God's special calling for us. I wonder if it's still home to us? The place we love to see His name glorified the most. Is it still the place we guard jealously? It is still the minsitry we pray for before we go to sleep? Are the people in it still one the dearest people we have in our lives? Do we still pray and yearn for the best for this family of brothers and sisters God has placed so lovingly in our midst...
Yes! Yes on so many accounts.... I remember asking God as a lonely child if God would grant close friends to relate to. I ask God also to learn to love. He answered by granting me the friends I've met in this church. He answered with not one but many. Espcially in the form of the brothers above. I'm never good with words but this is the truth of my heart - that the days of service together with Evan have always been the joyous times of my life. And to the sisters the Lord have placed as well...I have often prayed for the protection and joy for each of you. For you have been are the sisters I never had... The joys of my heart.
If you're reading this I don't know if all this is understandable. But as with every out pouring of the heart ; it's probably not. Still I'll go on.
As Joel leaves, I can't help but think we must all somehow move on with our lives. Nostagia and real life not a good mix. We can't live in yesterday and today and still look to a better tomorrow.
I try to make sense of leaving. Perhaps the Lord plans that people must part. Through circumstances and through death. If Christians do not part how are they to reach the gospel to the ends of the earth? I brothers and sisters never part, then how will the reunit before His throne in Heaven. I've come to accept the coming and going of people in my life as inevitable.
But that has never made goodbyes any easier to say. Nor departures more confortable to bear.
I'm not good with goodbyes am I?
Joel's the next person to leave for studies overseas. It got me thinking of the past so things that some of the brothers in church had together. The days when WeiJie, Gabriel, Joel, my brother and myself served together in church as band of Advisors in YM. That seems like a lifetime ago. Almost like it never happened sometimes. Thinks are sometimes so drastically different that I don't know what to make of it.
With the passage of time, circumstances differ and people change. Deep relationships become shallow and time honoured bonds wane. Time has such an effect on people doesn't it. It can be brutally cruel in this way. A even more cruel to accept.
I wonder of some of us still feel the same way about our place in church? That it's God's special calling for us. I wonder if it's still home to us? The place we love to see His name glorified the most. Is it still the place we guard jealously? It is still the minsitry we pray for before we go to sleep? Are the people in it still one the dearest people we have in our lives? Do we still pray and yearn for the best for this family of brothers and sisters God has placed so lovingly in our midst...
Yes! Yes on so many accounts.... I remember asking God as a lonely child if God would grant close friends to relate to. I ask God also to learn to love. He answered by granting me the friends I've met in this church. He answered with not one but many. Espcially in the form of the brothers above. I'm never good with words but this is the truth of my heart - that the days of service together with Evan have always been the joyous times of my life. And to the sisters the Lord have placed as well...I have often prayed for the protection and joy for each of you. For you have been are the sisters I never had... The joys of my heart.
If you're reading this I don't know if all this is understandable. But as with every out pouring of the heart ; it's probably not. Still I'll go on.
As Joel leaves, I can't help but think we must all somehow move on with our lives. Nostagia and real life not a good mix. We can't live in yesterday and today and still look to a better tomorrow.
I try to make sense of leaving. Perhaps the Lord plans that people must part. Through circumstances and through death. If Christians do not part how are they to reach the gospel to the ends of the earth? I brothers and sisters never part, then how will the reunit before His throne in Heaven. I've come to accept the coming and going of people in my life as inevitable.
But that has never made goodbyes any easier to say. Nor departures more confortable to bear.
I'm not good with goodbyes am I?
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