25 November - Exam Period

I can't believe I'm doing this now at this time when I should be sleeping... anyways.. if any still reads this...it's been a long time since i last blogged. I would go into the details about how stressful it is to study in NUS Electrical Engineering... probably bore myself and anyone who reads this.. but I guess the thing I dread most is not about the fact that the workload is immense or that the thing topics i learn are diffcult...but what i dread is the fact that feel as if I'm not part of the lives of those whome i love and cherish.. my church friends especially... never really had the time to talk heart to heart to anyone of them this semester.. wish i could have been there for people especially those having exams...people like Ching, Mel, Huiyu and Huimin...then of course my dear sister Gina... wish i could have had more time to talk to people like WeiJie, Joel and Tianli and even my brother...then there's my parents as well...sigh it's really horrible...like i'm not part of anyone's lives anymore...swept up by the bitter gale of academic pursuit....don't think i have had a conversation with more brother for more than 2 min...

I miss everyone...did i say mention that I feel left out of everyone's life? well i do...seems no different from people like Andrew who's studying all the way Down Under... no difference at all...

I wonder if working life is going to be like that? i don't wanna to live a life that's like that...devoid of relationships and forever MIA from people's lives...

I miss my life...
sigh... it's back to study... Lord grant me your strength and your focus.. that i may run this final race of this semester to the end... i commit to you my fears, my friends and family whom I miss dearly... Bless that even as you have blessed and kept me safe in Your arms..I look forward to spending Christmas and the holidays with them once again. In Jesus Name. Amen.