I've Got the Blues
Ok.. So it's the end of the exams. I've stepped down as VCF Chairperson. I have handed over after Exco Retreat. Said my peace to VCF members at AGM last Monday and now there's only LPC. But then why am I feeling kinda down... Shouldn't I feel relaxed since everthing is finally over...
Perhaps its because I'm gonna have to teach Sunday School to a bunch of Sec 3-4 girls in 12 weeks time.. No that's not it.
Or maybe its coz LPC is still in 2 weeks time and i need to do something during Vesak day. No that's not it either.
Or perhaps it because none of the companies which I've gone for interview for has asked me back. But that's it cos I still have 3 mths to wait till employment. And seriously, I can afford to wait.
Maybe its because so many of my friends are getting married. Kelvin Tan, Joanne Lee and Jianming, Lionel and even Ruth just got engaged (well at least the ring is there). Yeah. This one's a bummer. It means I'm getting old. Can't pretend I'm some JC student just getting in to Uni anymore.
Maybe its also because I have to wear green again tomorrow. 3 months worth of NS liability is sure to get anyone down. Moreover I wouldn't know everyone there. Most of my friends would have ORDed a long time ago. It'd be a really new place. I'll have to adapt back to army life and to the new people at the unit. Then again, I went to the unit after BMT and adapted on my own. It also means I get an official reason to not do anything right? I still have leave to clear. So I guess that's not too bad.
So what is it? I'm not too sure...
Perhaps its the memories I'll be leaving behind. The days of mugging, lab work and even the last miunte adrenaline rush to submission. I'll miss the lectures too. Listening and being taught new things. Discovering new stuff and relooking at old stuff...
Then there's the friends (esp my Exco friends) with whom I've shared my life with and the ups and downs we all went through. And the reality that life will cause us all to grow more distant somewhat. I'm not too sure I like the prospect of that. But I guess that's real life...
Or maybe its just the combination of all of it...
Sigh... Graduation blues
Perhaps its because I'm gonna have to teach Sunday School to a bunch of Sec 3-4 girls in 12 weeks time.. No that's not it.
Or maybe its coz LPC is still in 2 weeks time and i need to do something during Vesak day. No that's not it either.
Or perhaps it because none of the companies which I've gone for interview for has asked me back. But that's it cos I still have 3 mths to wait till employment. And seriously, I can afford to wait.
Maybe its because so many of my friends are getting married. Kelvin Tan, Joanne Lee and Jianming, Lionel and even Ruth just got engaged (well at least the ring is there). Yeah. This one's a bummer. It means I'm getting old. Can't pretend I'm some JC student just getting in to Uni anymore.
Maybe its also because I have to wear green again tomorrow. 3 months worth of NS liability is sure to get anyone down. Moreover I wouldn't know everyone there. Most of my friends would have ORDed a long time ago. It'd be a really new place. I'll have to adapt back to army life and to the new people at the unit. Then again, I went to the unit after BMT and adapted on my own. It also means I get an official reason to not do anything right? I still have leave to clear. So I guess that's not too bad.
So what is it? I'm not too sure...
Perhaps its the memories I'll be leaving behind. The days of mugging, lab work and even the last miunte adrenaline rush to submission. I'll miss the lectures too. Listening and being taught new things. Discovering new stuff and relooking at old stuff...
Then there's the friends (esp my Exco friends) with whom I've shared my life with and the ups and downs we all went through. And the reality that life will cause us all to grow more distant somewhat. I'm not too sure I like the prospect of that. But I guess that's real life...
Or maybe its just the combination of all of it...
Sigh... Graduation blues
1 Comments:
Been there done that. It'll go away in time. I guess that's what we call growing up. Scary eh?
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